look to the skies

 

Colorado All-State Symphony Orchestra 2008
Piccolo		French Horns
Maria Mandico	Rampart HS	Mark Pettey	Lewis Palmer HS
		Thomas Park	Woodland Park HS
Flutes		Matthew Jasica	Legacy HS
Rebecca Smith	Niwot HS	Samantha Allen	Regis Jesuit HS
Amanda Brignola	Sand Creek HS	Rachel Spidell	Denver School of the Arts
0boes		Trumpets
Matthew Yuknas	Grandview HS	Amy Darling	Denver School of the Arts
Micah Kim	Rampart HS	Tucker Ewer	Ralston Valley HS
		Brennan Roper	Highlands Ranch HS

Never saw that one coming.

Dr. Suess brightens my day!
Ok so, I hope I did well on the ACT. At least it's done, though.
Katie and I went to the Garden Gate after, the food was good. I like the Garden Gate. Both of us were exhausted, and loopy.
Practice was total lameness. Kay's son is so adorable, and it's hard to concentrate on music when he's in the room....(!) He's got the sweetest smile. Ugh, wouldn't it be weird to date my teacher's son? It sounds like it could be illegal.
I babysat for Julian last night (kind of) and I met the german au pair that's staying there. Her name is Igul. But Julian was grumpy and sick, so was Marcus, so we didn't really have a chance to talk. But she seems really sweet.
I just want to get through this week.

This is just hilarious.

I'm trying to think of someone who has influenced me life for my college entrance essay in English, and I'm having trouble coming up with of someone that's unique, or someone who I haven't already written about which is ugh so hard.
The only person I can think of is that guy who was singing opera in the subway station. But it's not like he profoundly influenced me. But he did a little, I guess.
I just can't think of anyone...(!)

Dear Nate and Marie,
Thank god you are both ok. I left school today, going left, which I almost never do, and I saw police cars flashing in the distace. Traffic was slow, and for a split second I wondered if it might be you guys who were in an accident. When I drove by, I couldn't believe what I saw; all the metal and Marie's car right in the middle of it. It scared me so much, but I wasn't sure if I should stop because it was already so chaotic, and everyone seemed to be fine. I kept going, immediately feeling guilty and worried to death about you two. I wish it didn't have to happen to you guys. I'm so sorry it took me a while to call you, and I am so so glad you are (mostly) ok.
I love you both much more than you probably realize, and I'm so relieved that you are ok.
Love,
Becky

I got the scholarship!!!!!
Yay. 500 dolares para mi!

College mail count? 26! God! So many to choose from!! And one from dePaul. Craziness!

I was lying when I said--
you don't scare me.
I would rather
face
a crowd of ten million people
then to see you,
sitting there,
mocking every time
I tried to reach out to you
from the corners of myself.
Has your head gotten bigger
with lies,
or just arrogance?
at believing you could pretend
one more time,
that I wasn't there, no more insignificant
than dust?
I am so sick of you
and all your stupid games.
please leave
because you are to blame
refusing to understand
when I was the most vulnerable.

I couldn't tell you that you're hurting me
but you are.

I wouldn't tell you that you're all I see
but it's the truth.

I shouldn't tell you that for all this time,
I was scared shitless
of you
and I am.

Because when this pain
unraveled my heart
you made me something
I'm not,
now
I swear I'm going crazy.

You know all the things I never told you.

Don't you?

I miss everybody horribly. Sooomebody call me!

yes!!!
tonight I was uber fucking brave!!
score one.

Hey Guys--
Well, this is exciting, I'm in Savannah, Georiga right now. I'm happy there's still internet access. But anyway, just saying hi, please comment, I am a lonesome girl out here!!

This was the worst day of my life.

I'm sick as hell. I can barely breath.

If anyone wants to care, feel free to drop me a line.

Hey Everybody I'm (finally) making this friends only. Kisses and hugs and comment if you want to be added!